the only answers I can come up with are the ones I've already said. I'm lazy. too much thinking. when I don't get praise or response, my ego hurts. really, there is no excuse. I should just do it.
I've tried a few times to write every day in a daily planner/calendar. but it usually turns out the way joining the gym does - I do it once or twice, and then never do it again. and end up with a blank calendar/journal.
but I figured I'd give it another shot. so I recently went to my favorite place on earth (yes, you guessed it), Target and purchased a 2011-2012 day planner. it's the kind that has a full month view first and then room to write on each day throughout the week. so I got it at the beginning of July and have maybe written in it three times. sigh. but I'm not going to give up. I'm going to keep trying.
|the sticker is my own embellishment - from *pardon my hindi.|
honestly, I was considering not keeping this blog - just shutting it down. most of the time I feel like I'm just talking to myself. I was trying to make it more of a "poetry/writing" blog - because it seems like the most successful blogs are focused on something - you know, crafting, or recipes/cooking, vintage, or just a million pictures of the blogger wearing the same outfit. but then I realized that the whole reason I started this blog to begin with was to just write. even if it's only for myself. so yes, I will write poetry here. I will write about writing here. but chances are, I'll mostly just write nonsensicle crap about my hair, or something I want to buy... or if I'm feeling particularly philosophical, I might write about Krishna. who knows what I'll write about. but it's about doing it. and being in the moment - that is my biggest struggle of all.
so hang in there with me... all 3.5 of you who actually read this thing. we can be in the moment together.